Seventeen

I tend to forget that I am seventeen. For some reason I have always imagined seventeen year olds to be more mature than I am. I think of myself as sixteen still. I'm not mature and I'm not in control, and I'm not ready to be an adult in a year. I think things are going by too fast. I need more time to just be. More importantly, I need more time to figure out what I want to do with my life. Even then, I guess that is not such a big deal. Ever since I saw that one really long movie that lots of people made fun of with Brad Pitt playing a lot of age groups I have believed that its never too late to start anew. That said, I can really only do some things once. This is a big motivator for me joining the military. I find that I have always looked up to military men. I do not know why, only that there is usually something about them, something that sets them apart. My father admits that the whole experience changed him, and I want to experience a real change in my life. I think it would both open my mind and force it into form.